Yesterday was one of the toughest days in my life. The day a fellow sister, someone whom I’ve been looking up to most of my life has gone to our heavenly Father. She was a strong woman in her faith and trust Him through it all. A part of me is in excruciating pain in my chest, my tears flow uncontrollably, but a part of me is glad she’s no longer suffering. I am in such a mixed emotion, I really want to go home. I wanted to be there for her. I still can’t believe it. … so many thoughts running through my head.

God, I pray that you will guide all of us through this as we are in our weakest moment; may you lift us up and give us the strengths to move forward. 

I know I was really angry at my schedule last night because I have field work on weekends. And there’s absolutely no way for me to skip it for anything because it cannot be made up. I was angry that it is my heaviest-load-of-work-week, but soon after I cleared my head because I wasn’t thinking straight. At the end, I am just thankful for God and all that he has done in my life. I am thankful, I am thankful, I am thankful, and I trust you.

——-I thank you, God, for putting her into my life and how close we’ve gotten in the past years. I will cherish all the memories we had; I will miss you always. Love you and see you again.

“I will sing of the LORD’s great love forever; with my mouth I will make your faithfulness known through all generations. I will declare that your love stands firm forever, that you have established your faithfulness in heaven itself.”

 Psalm 89:1-2